So, I'm one of those people who really likes to have a routine, to plan ahead, to know what's coming before it comes. Because if I don't have those things, it's scary, something unknown may happen.
I'm excited about moving to Keizer, and I've been wanting to move to Keizer for a while now. But now that I am moving, I'm scared. And worried and nervous and stressed and not sleeping very well. I thought that maybe I would just be so happy because now I'm going to live so close to my family and I get to go to massage school like I wanted, and I don't have to work at a bank anymore... I was supposed to feel ecstatic. But instead, I just feel scared. I feel scared of all the things that are going to be different after we move. Everything is going to be different.
See, I really like my grocery store, and my library, and the neighborhood I walk in, and the restaurants I go to, and the people that I run into that I know. But in Keizer, the grocery store isn't across the street and it might be set up differently, and I'm going to have to find things and not know where they are. And the library isn't going to be just down the street, and I don't know which library I want to go to- Salem, Chemeketa, Silverton... And I don't even know if Keizer has a frozen yogurt place for Craig and I to go to for a date.
I'm just terrible at change. Even the changes I want the most in life still freak me out. I hate feeling this way. I hope it feels better soon.
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